When everything is trying to get you off the center,
I’m talking about every single one of your pet peeves is going off,
People you don’t f*ck with is coming into your orbit…
It typically is a sign that you are holding on to something that needs to let go and now you’re being a hard head
and you need a soft a**
This is the literal (real) time lesson I’m experiencing right now
The last few days especially during my new content challenge to reboost, revise and just get back into my flow.
There’s been different kinks that’s been happening.
Th last time I hit a kink is like, you know what
It completely ended the challenge
This time with knowledge, experience, I have different guardrails, systems and different things to get over the kink
letting go some of my perfectionist tendencies that I have. I’m an Oldest Daughter y’all
I thought I took all the experience have a different vision
After spending so much time resting, regulating, doing some shadow work, where i want to go to be in alignment, I get this vision.
I hold this vision. I have ideas so that I can bring forth this vision.
And now the last couple of days, every single thing that’s been coming through, I’m like, oh my God
Oh my God
Oh my God
Oh my God
I thought Universe
We were on the same page
We were doing it!
Matter of fact, if you’re telling me the current vision
that I have ain’t sh*t whatever’s come next better be 10X better and it better get here expeditiously
I do not have time
I do not have patience for this
I thought we was vibing
And Universe like, no
There’s still something here
that you need to let go and make room for it.
Because if you do not let it go, you won’t be able to expand and be able to hold the blessing
That is the lesson that I’ve been receiving.
That is what I’m learning.
Whatever I’m holding on here, it must go.
It needs to move so that the new stuff can come in and for whatever reason, I’m holding onto it.
And for whatever reason, it’s still there
And for whatever reason, it’s still murky.
But I know the reason.
That’s my fear.
That was my anxiety.
Those are my insecurities and the different things that are coming up.
Because when I get stressed and frazzled, I fall down to my systems
We all fall down to our foundations.
We all fall down to those things when things is going all around.
And so I’m thinking, okay
I have settled this and I have not
And in this moment ~ it’s just training, preparation
Just like when you go into the gym and you start a new workout.
It’s going to be sh*tty the first couple of times but then it gets better
Now you balling wit all your trophies and stuff
So I’m learning
I am sitting
I am resting
excuse me **sneeze**
I guess that’s confirmation for something.
Confirmation that you got to let it go to make room for the new so that you can truly hold it.
I don’t know about y’all, I’II be damned if I get exactly what I want
It’s even better than what I want and I can’t f*cking hold it.
It ain’t no worse feeling in the world than when your blessings finally get here and you can’t hold it.
Let it go
Let it go
Let it go
It’s going to be okay.
The Universe is telling you to let it go.
The Universe has to catch you.
You got to be in balance.
That, my babies is the lessons for today and that’s day 5
Let’s see what Day 6 is about to be.